Loneliness

Sometimes its better to be alone.

I'm still trying to recover from the weekend. I went out to the club with my boyfriend and someone spiked my drink. I managed to throw the drink out and purge, but something even worse happened. my boyfriend got aggresive, and i still have a bruise where my head hit the wall.
I told him to leave me alone. He hasn't really as much as I wish he would. I didn't break things off because he's mentally unstable and who knows what he would've done. My whole family is scared, and his is too.
Another shitty thing that happened on the weekend - i tore the back of my throat purging. it hurt so bad for days i couldnt purge or anything. So i tried to refrain from eating. anyways my throat is more healed now but i feel really shitty about myself - not being able to purge and having no one to share my life with.
I don't know what to do... I know that taking him back would be the biggest mistake of my life.
So I guess I'm just trying to make it through... day by day....